dude.

I find out if I am accepted into Appalachian in a week. My ex-boyfriend has a new girlfriend. More temptation falls hand in hand with growing closer to God. UNCW interests me more than ever. In order to follow my heart I am not able to please everyone. People seem to get mad at me when they don't know the whole situation. Top Twenty might be out of reach. God says not to worry and that's all I find myself doing. Sleep needs to become more evident. "Everything is right except the main thing."


I spilled orange juice on my bed.
It's the best of times, It's the worst of times.

Isaiah 40:29-31

so I had this epiphany..

And we're..
Sitting in calculus, clock almost striking the 3.
So close, yet so far to hearing that glorious bell sound.
Group assignments, once again.
As we wait for Coach Hardin to give us answers.
or well.. that's what I thought everybody did.
I thought we, the class, were all in this together.
I guess assumptions really are wrong.
I didn't think anyone actually wanted to stay,
figure out problems, when it is time to go!

EPIPHANY!

EVERYONE CARES ABOUT LEARNING HOW.
I CARE ABOUT THE RIGHT ANSWER, AND LEAVING.

So, as I am closing my spiral bound notebook,
everyone else GASPS as they shriek,
"I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T SEE THAT!"
I am currently laughing.
Are they THIS excited about a quicker way to quadrati-simpli-ntergrate something?

By George, I think so.
Props to my peers.
I never thought calculus could excite one so much.
I mean, I am completely stoked how everyone was smiling, laughing,
having a good time because of Coach Harding pointing out their stupidity.
However, I really get just as much enjoyment out of sitting there.
That's probably the reason I have a C.
Realization is killer.

I am

I am complicated and beautiful.
I wonder where I will be in the future.
I hear a clock ticking away.
I see two different ways.
I want to make a difference.
I am complicated and beautiful.

I pretend to have it all together.
I feel my heart pulled in many directions.
I touch the stars with my fingertips.
I worry about decisions.
I cry when I see others suffer.
I am complicated and beautiful.

I understand things will fall into place.
I say my prayers.
I dream about a vision I've been given.
I try to please everyone.
I hope I will listen.
I am complicated and beautiful.

Wait a Minute

Am I sitting here with my hair on top of my head and a song in my heart?

If in your sickness you are desperate to recover
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute now
When you're a seeker who is longing to discover
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute now, cause

They who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength
They will mount up on wings
They will walk and not faint
Seasons of this life change but God's faithfulness remains
They who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength

When you keep asking but the answer still eludes you
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute now
When the anger burns and threatens to consume you
Wait a minute, wait a minute, wait a minute now, cause

So wait...wait
Just wait...wait

When you've been running, love comes sneaking up behind you
Hey wait a minute now