the beauty is in the breakdown.

You are riding a bike, a slight hill is in view. The hill does not appear as such a large obstacle, but as you start to pedal up the slope you realize you are now having to use more force. You lean in towards the handle bars and push harder. What appeared as a small slope now reveals itself and takes more out of you than you are prepared to handle. The worst part of the whole journey is that it is longer than you planned. The crest of the hill is still a distance away.If only you could reach the peak, you know you could coast for awhile at least.

I came in to college at a steady pace. The ground was flat and there were not any large obstacles. Now, I've hit an incline. I can't stop pushing or I'll roll back down the hill. The hardest part of this journey is that I don't know when I'll hit a peak. I don't know when I'll just be able to coast. Lord, you've called me to live an uncomfortable life. I am willing Lord. Just, please, provide the strength I need to get up this hill.

For the record, I'm a full time failure.

You know me better than I know myself.

I'm a high-class screwed up mess.

You love me just because.

I'm the creation, You're the Creator.

I am imperfect, You're the Redeemer.

I'm filled with questions, You are the answer.

I am a sinner, You are my Savior.

-mandy mapes

Hallelujah.